I have commitment issues. Not to people, necessarily, but to blogs. I have a tendency to start a blog, keep it going for a few months, then fall out of habit, only to later delete it and start over.
This has happened so many times I’ve lost count. Why do I share this info? It seems counter-intuitive — won’t it drive people away to know I could abandon ship at any moment?
I hope not. My thinking here is that by talking about it I can prevent it from happening again.
Part of the reason I made this a “lifestyle” blog is because there’s more wiggle room for what I can write about. I’ve started more topical sites before — knitting, photography, fat acceptance, you name it — and I always get bored or feel like I’m out of content. So my hope is that by being a little more broad, I can keep myself interested.
I’m not completely sure why I do this. Maybe it’s an ADHD thing — I lose focus, so I lose interest, so I start over. That certainly seems like a plausible explanation, and it fits with the way I do a lot of other things. I start over with new notebooks and planners all the time, instead of waiting until one is full. In school I always wanted to change topics on projects, and in undergrad I did change my major several times. Long-term activities of any kind can be tough for me, because I get bored or antsy or I lose focus. I hope that I’m getting better now that I’m finally aware of and treating my ADHD, but whether that lasts long-term remains to be seen.
If nothing else, I paid for hosting for this site, so it’s not going anywhere any time soon.